I have several friends who have been married these years, but not me.
Though we have been dated for almost seven years, it is still not the time for me.
However, I think that I have been living in the life that is just like marriage for many years.
The difference is, I can say goodbye anytime I want as we have no true marriage relationship between us.
I know I am a bad girl that say goodbye all the time when we have arguments...
People say that you are such a good man that I should treasure.
You know what? I am not used to tell other people what I did for you and how good I treat you these time we together.
So, I am silent all the time when they said those words, just smile.
Yes, I know I should always remember all the beautiful things you brought to me and throw the tears far away.
But how difficult it is if I need to do it perfectly.
I do treasure our relationship as I always stay with you as long as you apologised and begged after our awful arguments.
I still remember the feeling when we went to take photos for our five-years anniversary.
We took our first cat son to take photo with us.
I do not know how you felt about that...
I am afraid of marriage as I have too much uncertainty now...
But what I can say for sure is that life with you is really happy most of the time.
I know I can lean on you when I am weak and sad;
You always tolerate my bad temper when I lost control;
You can make me happy when I was sad;
You always insist on keeping our relationship.
I think that is why I always forgive you and stay with you.
I do not know where the marriage is and have no desire to know.
Let us lean on each other. That is enough.